"Zoophobia (or animal phobia) is a class of specific phobias to animals; an irrational fear of any non-human animals. Cynophobia is the abnormal fear of dogs, and it is especially debilitating because of the high prevalence of dogs and general ignorance of dog owners to the phobia."

I honestly cannot remember a day that I was not afraid of animals. The earliest, earliest memory I have of a dog is probably at the place of mummy's friend when I was a toddler; me going to the toilet by myself (that was a small girl achievement thank you very much!!!) at the back of the house and getting slightly bitten by her dog who was guarding it or something WTS why u want to guard toilet inside hide gold??

So my close friends all know I've been afraid of animals since super young :-( I think ppl think I just acting cute or sth but wahpiang u stupid meh act semo niao scared of dog very cute?????? I'm scared of birds and cats all the same, but I just feel more towards about my fear of dogs: Cynophobia.

I'm typing this post as I feel very emotional that I just cried bad about my Cynophobia lol fml :-(

YL loves Junior (his Jack Russell) and I always see them playing with each other......................... on Face-freaking-Time hahahahaa (video chat)

It's not that I hate Junior, I want to love him just as much as YL too because YL is just soooo happy whenever I see him with Junior (especially after he went to NS is this an army thing???? to be super sentimental and stuff???) but I'm too scared to even think about it?? I like seeing Junior on FaceTime every time. I ask YL to show me what Junior is doing and if he has eaten or went gaigai (walks). I've bought toys and snacks for Junior as well pls don't think I'm a cold animal hating creature lah ok

My mild hatred for animals completely and absolutely stems from my fear of them. Nothing to do with me being a sadist or what WTF

So anyway I just saw I just saw them playing happily AGAIN and something came over and I bawled because I'm just so sad that I cannot share the love he has for Junior wtf idk how to explain

I told him I feel super lousy and he says he doesn't care about it but I know it must upset him.. eg he would be talking about dogs and saying next time he wants to buy 4 dogs and the breeds then he looks at me and like scraps the idea lol. Or he will walk past a pet shop excitedly then i will tell him to go ahead while i wait outside and he refuses. It makes me so sad u know what i mean???

I wanna bring him out for walks with YL and stuff too but cannot because I will probably really faint if he comes near me. I don't really go to my friends' houses with dogs; I don't even go to my own boyfriend's house because of his dog. I really really cannot remember when was the last time I've been to his place. Do you know how much that sucks??? Not being able to go to your own boyfriend's place just because of your own stupidly retarded fear???

The past few times (probably less than 10 in 3 years) I've been to his house he has to put Junior in the toilet, of the master bedroom, with both doors closed, then I have to be inside ANOTHER room, with that door closed as well, to make sure that IF he magically managed to open the toilet door, then bedroom door, he won't be able to reach me yet because of the room I'm in. And I will be seated in the far corner of the room as away from the door as possible. Lol. As I type this I feel like I am crazy.

But at that point of time in that same house as Junior, I feel that my protection is still not enough. I want to wear like an astronaut suit or something fml.

I watch videos of Cesar Milan (I know this guy because YL watches him so much) myself and read articles about fighting Cynophobia. I never expected my fear was so serious until I realised I cannot function with dogs anywhere near me :-( I have quite a good animal radar because I am damn scared of them I'm super aware of their presence even a distance away hahahaha WTF (birds + cats included).

I freak out so bad when I hear tiny ringing bells because it's what dogs usually have on their dog collar lol you know how many times I have freaked out to find out that it's only a person's darn keychain bell instead?????? Like LOL it's super stupid?!

Ok anyway Google says I need to start with calm dogs in the "right state-of-mind" to fight my fear. Where to find such dogs someone pls tell me, do they have a dog rehab centre for humans or something hahahah wtf

Junior is soOoOoOo active and aggressive I can't even stand outside his house for long he bark until the building gonna collapse kind of bark. YL says its because he's a Jack Russell :-( So then I scold him why can't he buy a cute dog like Poodles or something. Then after that I took it back because I remember my cousin had a tiny Yorkshire Terrier and it was equally menacing to me. I read online that dogs are naturally more aggressive to people who are afraid because they are suspicious of u. My life sucks

I'm not even kidding about this fear??? Then I don't understand why some people take it lightly i am annoyed to death with people like that lol

But then again they cannot understand the fear right!!! Animals are so cute and harmful why need to be scared of them I will just purposely bring them to u then u will change ur mind and love them just like us end of story

Like plzzzzzzz 你可以 shutttttttt theeeeeee hellllllllll uppppppp 吗

So if you are my friend and you are reading this pls stop disturbing me with dogs la it's so childish and lame la!!!!!!! I'm just suey to have such a phobia can fml don't need do this to me liao pls grow up???? Lol

So pekchek cannot even explain because only people with Cynophobia too will understand haahhahaah if u have Cynophobia too can we pls make friends pls pls pls my twitter instagram email links all up there pls 

I have other friends who are 'afraid of dogs' as well.... but mine is different level OK hahaaha like they can stand the presence of dogs, just not direct contact and things like that. I cannot even bear to be within 500m from them. Out of my sight also not enough wtf. Just the presence itself is like enough to slowly kill me LOL SO DRAMA BUT I NEVER LIE :-(

I've been to friends' house with dogs also lor but I don't like because I feel uncomfortable myself and also guilty that I insist for the dogs to be put into a closed room. Not every owner would be ok with putting their dogs in confined spaces

YL doesn't like to put Junior in a room too, especially when he hears him bark he will go in and check on him, but he does it for my sake and I feel like complete shit

Bottom line is that if you are not afraid of dogs/animals in general, PLS DON'T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED BECAUSE YOU ARE SO BLESSED!!!!!!

I think that when I get older I will really go look for like phobia specialists or something like that if they even exist. YL gets more excited to shop for Junior's accessories than for himself. I really really want to love them as much as he does.

OMG i typed so much unknowingly lol ok bye excuse me while i wallow in self pity haizzzzzzzz xoxox :-(